Ever had a day that caught you by surprise when you really thought you were ready for just about anything? I mean the types of things that left you with your mouth open, both good and bad – because you found them to be simply unbelievable.
That would be an accurate description of my week (if not, my last few months).
In this unbelievable week:
– I was celebrated by a former student turned professional actor on social media because of my impact in his life over a dozen years ago.
– I was crushed to learn two people I loved were diagnosed with two forms of cancer, and I’d spoken with them just days ago.
– I was humbled to learn new students I’m teaching are catalyzed to exceed expectations because of what they are learning in our class.
– I was baffled to see many I love mishandled by people who were rank and raucous, though most would be in shock and awe.
– I was devastated to learn a childhood friend lost a spouse she’s loved nearly 30 yrs – 38 days ago…because she’s still counting.
My mouth was open.
I wasn’t ready.
I decided as a young woman I would stop asking God, “Why?” At least that was the plan; but, I’ve been unsuccessful because when heartbreaking things happen, I find myself searching for the rhyme and the reason. When amazing things happen, I wonder, “What did I do to deserve this?”
It is there that I unearth the source of my intrigue…
I marvel at God’s ability to move in my life unbeknownst to me. Those trials and tragedies and trauma-laden moments are merely stepping stones for Him. They are events that I will get past; places I will landmark; people I will learn far better than they realize – that I may grow stronger in Him.
In the mystery of what I do not understand, He anchors me. He lifts my spirit with His life-giving Word. He comforts me when my heart collapses. He consoles me when my enemies conspire, and often without fulfilling my request to ”just tell me everything I want to know.”
He knows better.
o He doesn’t need my help, but He does ask for my trust.
o If He can part a sea, number hairs, heal disease and rescue millions, He might be able to handle my “little” problems.
o He loves me – even when I’ve not loved myself…
I believe God has a unique purpose for each of our lives. Are you fulfilling yours?
I marvel at His kindness, and I’m enamored with His grace.
I refuse to concede to the notion that ultimate failure is inevitable. I’m too confident in His faithfulness to me.
I am sealed by His love.